Re: 24-hour call, hour #10

Today I am working at a section of the hospital that I haven’t worked at in over 7 months.

(Due to hospital politics + cost-cutting/layoffs, in addition to certain really whiney interns, this section had lost a certain group of workers and are thereby somewhat short-staffed. So they conveniently have the residents doing shifts here instead.

No words can accurately describe how bitter I am to be here.

It’s like— it feels like I’m being severely punished for something I didn’t do?


Now that I’m home and can react accordingly — ASDLFKJASDFL!

For those who sent me a message earlier today — thank you!  I can’t reply to all of them but I read each one and I appreciate it.

For those who are now here because of that Facebook post — hello!

  • This is a personal blog.
  • I make a lot of posts about Robert Downey Jr.
  • I also occasionally make posts about my day at work.
  • (I’m a doctor, specifically a second-year resident, living in Chicago.)
  • I love my cat.

If someone were to die at the age of 63 after a lifelong battle with MS or Sickle Cell, we’d all say they were a “fighter” or an “inspiration.” But when someone dies after a lifelong battle with severe mental illness and drug addiction, we say it was a tragedy and tell everyone “don’t be like him, please seek help.” That’s bullshit. Robin Williams sought help his entire life. He saw a psychiatrist. He quit drinking. He went to rehab. He did this for decades. That’s HOW he made it to 63. For some people, 63 is a fucking miracle. I know several people who didn’t make it past 23 and I’d do anything to have 40 more years with them.

anonymous reader on The Dish

One of the more helpful and insightful things I’ve seen about depression/suicide in the last couple of days.

(via mysweetetc)

(via truth-has-a-liberal-bias)

Dear Robert Downey Jr.’s Facebook—

Thank you.

It’s an understatement for me to say that you made my day today but you did.  Once was enough but twice is a blessing.

Please don’t be a stranger; you’re awesome.



[facebook #1 | facebook #2 ]

Listen, he got there [to sobriety] on his own. When I met him, I had no intention of falling for him. He was an actor, I had a real job. But there was a connection. I’ve always been very focused and very driven in how I live my life. And I was very clear with him that I wasn’t on board for a roller coaster of drama and ridiculousness. So if he wanted to go on this ride together, he was going to have to clean up his act. That was a choice he made. There was nothing I could do.

Susan Downey [Empire | October 2014]